Why

I don't hate you. Or rather i no longer do. Neither do i hate her. I was resentful but i realised it was all a mistake on my part. To have mistaken a burning passion for the view of the future. This knot was to be untied. But everytime i realise that this knot is about to be undone, i will hear your resentment. There are things that i treasure. I was just afraid that the stuff i treasure might just become trash to you. So time and again i tell you not to throw this and that, not to delete this and that. I once told you that i will never throw anything that my exes have written to me or given to me or that things that we've shared. But you also once told me that you would throw such stuff away. I'm not sure if you will treat our stuff differently from the ones the previous has given you. I would like to tell myself that i once had the love i wanted from all my exes and enjoy this feeling and maybe live in it again when i feel down. Please try to understand that i had lost alot of my past. I don't wish to start losing them again when i am just about to get as much back as possible.

Thank you.

YS said no one will be thankful like this like me. But i am thankful. Thankful that you left. That you left like that. You helped me see that my friends are still where they are. That they still care very much about me. You even helped me see friends whom i had never thot would be my friends. I really mean what i say. You had helped me grow.

The past is already in the past. I had forgotten all the resentment i had and the things i had said out of resentment. I hope you too will forget what i had said in the past. I was upset and angry in the past. But now i am happy. =)